December... back to old memory this month..

wow! diam diam dah hujung tahun.. cepat nyer mase berlalu... x sangka bnyk perkara terjadi kat aku sepanjang tahun ni... awl tahun,aku dah kehilangan orang yang paling aku sayang after my parents,my first love.. die dah hbs sekolah.. k,I GOT TO MOVE ON! itu yang aku cakap kat diri aku mase hari pertame aku bersekolah without him.. aku ingat aku x leh survive,tp... I DID IT! then,mama decide anta aku gi SMT Sepang a.k.a SEPTECH.. wohoa! mama apply sbb die yg nak,aku x nak.. then,aku ingat tak dapat coz akk kat office tu cakap dah penuh,tetiber on the next day SEPTECH cowl mama,"Puan,ank puan diterima msk.." Mse akk tu dah ckp camtu,hati aku terus pecah.. terdetik dalam hati aku,"means that i have to leave SMK Alam Megah 2?! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this school dah bnyk bg memory dlm hidup aku! setiap pelusuk sekolah tu,ade jew memory dlm hdp aku! manis atau pahit!" nak tak nak,aku kene gi gak... huhuhu.... Tuhan jelah yang thu betapa berat hati aku nak tinggalkan segala yang aku dah bina atas usaha aku selama 3 tahun bersekolah kat situ... semua tu hancur dlm sekelip mate. smpi lar aku kat sekolah baru aku,SEKOLAH MENENGAH TEKNIK SEPANG. = =" aku amik course yg aku tak tahu asal usul nyer.. then msk2 jew diorang dah study smpi 2 chapter.. then,dari bwk buku nota Biology yg nipis tu,aku dah kene bwk beg Engineering Drawing (ED) yg gedabak + berat tuwh.. such a huge transformation i ever had in my life! then,haari kedua aku dah kene marah.. then,aku kene cari kwn baru coz kwn yg msk skali ngan aku + dormmate aku + ddk sblh aku,pindah coz die x leh nak carry ngan ED.. then,terkontang kanting aku cari kwn baru,finally aku jmpe gk yg satu kepale ngan aku.. tp,aku still x jmpe lg evn sorng pun smpi skrg ni,yg dpt gnti kwn2 aku kat sekolah lme dlu.. even sikit pun x der.. nak replace NADIAH & RAIDA?! mmg hrpn lar.. x jmpe... then,bln 3,cuti semester prtame.. 3 haari sblm naik sekolah,atok aku meninggal.. slame aku hidup 15 tahun 9 bulan mse tu,aku tak pernah pun jauh dr atok aku... sekali pun tak pernah.. yg plg jauh pun mse aku ddk umah sndri,itu pun selang 3 umah jew dr umah atok ngan nenek.. bygk lah,org yg kte dah nmpk dr die sihat smpi die sakit,yg dok jge die kat hospital seminggu tinggalkan kte.. hati aku jew yg thu prassan tu.. xkan ade sape pun boleh fhm.. then,kwn2 sekolah lme aku,bg support kat aku.. LIFE MUST GO ON! itulah kate2 yg kwn2 aku bg kat aku n aku still brpgg ngan kte2 diorg tu.. life must go on.. aku prgi sekolah mcm biase... bljr,main sne sni.. then.. aku jmpe ngan someone yg trk prhatian aku.. sbb,mke die sme ngan kwn sekolah lme aku.. then,kteorg knl n then jd bestfriend.. BESTFRIEND... jd bestfriend,tp x fhm mksd yg sbnr.. then,aku knl ngan dier n dier mule trk prhtian hati aku plak.. aduhai... mdh sngt aku cair ngan surat2 yg die bg kat aku tu... then,penah dgr x org ckp,TIME CAN MAKE PEOPLE CHANGE? itulah yg trjd kat kteorg mse hbngan kteorg jd bestfriend tu tgh climax stage.. then,aku try stay away dr dier.. then,aku leh buat,evn ssh.. sdkit demi sdkit aku dpt jauh kn diri dr dier.. then,aku jmpe lak ngan sorang senior aku ni... ish.. mcm novel lar hdp aku ni..
then,dier bg aku memory n attention yg x prnh aku trfikir akn dpt dr lelaki.. dier jge aku.. slalu ader mse aku prlukn dier.. mse aku msh prlukn die,die prgi dr hdp aku.. lg skali,aku ditnglkn oleh org yg aku syg.. satu per satu org yg aku syg dlm hdp aku tngglkn aku... nak tak nak,aku kne gak trus kan hidup aku..... smp lar saat ni... aku hidup di sisi org2 yg aku syg yg x tnglkn aku lg... nsb baik lar diorg ni ade,kalau tak.. hmmmmmm.. mmg hrpn lar nak tgk aq sehappy ni lg...if diorg2 ni plak tnglkn aku lps ni,aku tak tahu mcm mner aku nak jd mcm mne aku skrg ni...

24 November 2011,such a great moment in my life!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just cant believe it!!!!!! its like a fairytale! i went out with my friends,WARNA,nana,belle,sarah,fieqa,amirul n some others.we went to sunway pyramid,watch movie,skating n hangout.. skating! its was so fun + enjoyable! its my first time! nak msk jew dah tkot! then,dah msk,first2 dah stuck kat pntu msk dier.GOD! mlu gler! then,main kat tepi jew.. then,dlm 2 round camtu lps tgn lak skate without pgg tepi 2 n skali jth..then,break,after break berlagak! main x nak pgg tepi,amik kau! jatuh bedebuk!smpi trbrg dibuatnyer! hahahaha!mlu gler at that time! mne x nyer! smua org tgk! org kat ats,kat luar,kat dlm! argh! mlu! then,manusia.. mmg x serik dr kesilapan.. main lg,x pgg tepi,but this time jth agk mlu + sweet gak.. hehehe.. coz,ade someone help me.. its a boy... argh!!!!!! yg mlu nyer,kteorg cm trlnggr then jth sesame then die bgn n bg tgn dier srh kte bgn then kte smbt n mse kte nak bgn 2,tgn kte trkena crmn mte dier! argh! mlu gler at that time! then,we move to the movie.OH MY GOD! TAYLOR LAUTNER IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! he look gorgeous! Bella look stunning! Edward look old! cant wait for part 2! Breaking Dawn:part 1 is MY FIRST MOVIE,WITH MY FRIENDS! IT WAS AWESOME!then,blk amik taxi with 5 people inside it! dah mcm sardine but still best! diorg bkk cter psl Fikri lak..hahahah! sejarah lme lar guys! dah lme brkubur pun cter aq ngan dier tu.. then,what surprise me is,aq penah gdh ngan bestie aq sndri just simply because,die ckp ngan Fikri..????! OH MY GOD! IS IT REAL????!!!! how stupid i am at that time!!!!!!! argh! sumpah mlu gler! aq sndri pun x ingt,diorg blh ingt.. wohoa! hebatnyer korang ni.. anyway,thanks coz korang dah bkk blk cter lme tu n make me realize how stupid i am before! im not going to repeat the same thg! thats my promise to my BFF,WARNA..

WARNA:WAney,Raida,NAdiah
<3 u girls so much!
u guys are the best things that ever been mine!

If I were..

If I were a cartoon,I would be the funniest one to make you laugh when you sad
If I were a shoe,I would let you wears me everyday when you go to school
If I were a camera,I would take your picture everyday
If I were a rocket,I would send you to the moon to spent a night there
If I were a flower,I would be the pretiest one for you

If I were a chair,I would let you sit on me
If I were a pen,I would let you to use me to write a love song for me
If I were the star,I would let you had me
If I were a tissue,I would let you use me to wipe your tears when you cry
If I were a diary,I would let you to write in me about our memories...

For my BESTFRIEND..

I remember...

I remember the moment when the first time I saw you
I remember the moment when I saw you and her walking back home together
I remember when the first time I told you about my feelings towards you
I remember when I heard someone said that you tried to killed yourself because you failed to get her
I remember the first time I saw you playing football for the school team


I remember the moment when I saw you give her present for her birthday
I remember the first time we both dated at the school field
I remember the moment when you saw me through your heart
I remember when you told your friend all the bad things about me
I remember the moment when I heard you said to her that you hated me..

after a long time...

huh.. miracle... :O i had a dream about F.. after a long time x jmpe die.. smlm.. kteorg trserempak.. at Giant,Putra Height... die still cam dlu.. kurus,tngi n putih.. tp die mcm......... ntah.. x thu cam ner nak explain.. tegur die.. tp die mcm blur semacam jew.. n then,mlmnye.. mimpikan die lak.. erm... quite weird.... well,that dream not that sweet just plik jew.. after along time x mimpi psl die.. tetibe mlm td mimpi psl die.. erm.... smthg is not rite here... Farah.. remember what u promised 2 yourself ... jgn termakn janji... huh.. hopefully.. what happened yesterdat doesnt mean anything..huh.. cme.. dpt face to face ngan die.. NIKMAT... dah lme nmpk die.. dlm 8 bulan ade kot.. rindu die.... argh........... stop it Farah! remember what he had done to u before????????

The journey is begin..

erm.... hie... rse plik.. first time tulis dlm blog.. pfftt....well.. mcm2 nak cite.. let me introoduced myself first.. my name Nurfarah Hazwani binti Ahmad Zaidi.. Im 16,bufday 19 June..Stay,Shah Alam.. School,SMT Sepang.. Course, Civil Engineering studies.. huh.. not as easy as i thought.. Im suffer in silent type.. just keep it.. Tngh ske someone.. but..... IDK... its hard to explain it.. love making new frens.. nothin much bout me.. so.. i guess that's all for now.. some info bout me.. k,bye..